Corn on the Cobly

[Colby Donaldson]

Gosh. i really hope we win. I want to avoid tribal. The more numbers we lose the higher chance i could leave. I mean, since this isn't even activity based I'm worried that I could leave this round since there aren't really any excuses to vote people out this time

RIG IT FOR US <3

[Colby Donaldson]

I'll vote Silas if we lose. Not because i dislike him but because i've really spoken least to him and he can't do live challenges and that makes him being in the game risky (especially if we lost 2 challenges in a row). i know i very well may go but in all honesty i don't believe i'd deserve it at all so I won't take it to heart (get offended). I haven't played a poor game so yeah. Gosh. Please don't let us lose. I want to survive the first 3 votes at least, lol.

[Colby Donaldson]

YAY! i survived the first 2 votes!

Go Kenny

[Colby Donaldson]

Britti is steph. She knows i'm Colby. Oops, lol.

Doesn't mean much.

A) We're not on same tribe.

B) I have/had zero intention of targeting her but simply knowing she's Steph doesn't mean I won't target her either. As i said... knowing means shit. She'll have to become an ingame ally for me to care, lol.

C) She and I didn't discuss working together in the future.


I didn't know she was playing. I wouldn't have exposed myself in this game if i did, lol. But i don't mind her knowing either. I just REFUSE to let it become a crutch of any sort. Michelle is my homegirl still <3

[Colby Donaldson]

My social skills are severely lacking in this game. I'm going to be picked off soon, lol. I'd say that would be devestating but in all honesty it serves me right. I can't be as active as i like in this point in time. When i'm on i'm active but there is a huge stretch when I'm not!

[Colby Donaldson]

i cant even come up with a boot list or like a love em or leave em list because i haven't been bothered to form alliances. My goal has been to simply just be active and nice and let other people drive what i do (as opposed to when i used to try and control things). The problem is I'm playing with people who:

A) like to have alliance and stick with and that's it
B) don't care to have alliances
C) hate me, lol

I don't want to vent and rant multiple times about how i'm doomed and shit. If i go i go. It just sucks that like I forgot how to bring up alliances. It used to be so easy and now i'm out of practice. I feel like I need the game to change (tribe swap or something) to get some fresh air in my wings (or be voted out quickly).

I've literally been playing so that people just vote someone else out over me and not so that I can particularly control or win anything. This has been a fail of a tactic and for shame for me even considering it. I needed to strike earlier in the game to make alliances and i suppose i can either keep quiet or become a little more aggressive.

My first point to make is that I do NOT trust Michelle as my #1 anymore. I figure she might be playing me and Todd calling out our little dates makes me think she IS playing me. I might be her lifesafer cushion to her alliance. That's fine and dandy but they will all have those. Right now Michelle is a strong social player and that's dangerous.

The person i trust most is the person i seem to have a difficult time communicating with: Kenny. I trust him because i feel how he answers gives me a feel on how legit he is. For instance, i know he's not currently planning on voting me next. He might down the road but at least won't next (unless his alliance decides to).

I don't want to really play in the hopes of other people being picked off before me. That's playing the waiting game and that sucks. I was caught off guard by Todd's mention of our dates but i suppose i needed that. I was being too complacent. I at least like Todd's honesty in saying it. Now i know he knows instead of him hiding it. I figure i can either let that bridge rot or attempt to do something about it and and contact him. If i figure out how to word a potential alliance with him i will. i would want to attempt to make one because it would force him to either shoot it down or accept and with the perception of honesty i'd have of him he might very well shoot it down but then i'd know.

I'd say "couldn't hurt to try" but in all honesty at this point it really could hurt to try as the target could shift from Silas to me. I'd be putting myself in danger if i do anything right now (at least immediate danger considering i don't know if any tribe swaps or anything are planned which could change everything) but i feel like i should at least grab the games by the balls and try. Worst case is i get voted out and go back to having more free time which i wouldn't exactly mind. I do want to do well but if it's not meant to be it's not. At least i tried (if i do anything) right?

[Colby Donaldson]

Potential PM to Todd:

Since i never really have an opportunity to contact you about game related business on AIM i figure I may as well just PM you. We haven't really had the chance to talk game related shiz at all. tbh, besides a select few people in this game i haven't had the opportunity to talk game with anyone and i figure that very well may be my own fault for pussyfooting around the topic.

I wanted to contact you and ask you about potentially working together. I don't have any pregame ties with anyone and came into this game knowning no-one. My goal was to just let people do their own thing and hope that I was active enough to stay safe and not be the vote. This line of thinking is dangerous because it leads to not forming any true bonds. I speak to people on a fun level but rarely game related even those i speak with most like michelle. I like that but not something i feel safe with at all.

I was wondering if you wanted to potentially make some sort of agreement or align. I'm all for strong players and people who try at the game making it far and hate voting such people out unless they are against me. In other words, I'm against voting you out and figure i'd contact you about making some sort of deal where we don't vote each other out. From what I've seen you are honest so i figure no harm in asking you as you'll just turn me down and things go on as they do but if you do accept some sort of deal I would be loyal to it. I have 0 intention of targeting you and so far have liked getting to know you so if you are up for a deal then that would be great. If not at least i tried, lol.

Thanks!

[Colby Donaldson]

Sent! and i also changed my avatar to remind me that i'm not pussyfooting around anymore.

Bitches better vote me out for trying too hard. I don't want to leave for not trying hard enough! If i laid it on too strong than fuck you, lol.

[Courtney]

Cobly is DAMN hot.

[Colby Donaldson]

Happy ano makes Colby cheery <3

[Colby Donaldson]

I don't feel in danger. I still don't feel i can trust people but for now I feel i am at least a better off than i was before being a bit more aggressive. I'm never going to be confident in this game and am always going to expect to be the vote so whenever you read something from now on where i seem confident I really am not but am choosing to just go with it as if i wasn't leaving. In other words, it will never be a trueblindside when i leave, lol.

The vote seems to be for Silas this week. I'm game for that. He won his round of the second challenge but at the same time failed at this one and this one ran overnight.

The people i trust most right now are Kenny, Todd, and Michelle. I asked Kenny who he trusted and he mentioned Todd but also mentioned Natalie. That definitely threw me off. Is he trying to play me to see if i'm aligned with her or anything? I said i'd try to talk to her but told him i was finding it difficult. He seemed persistant and wants to form some sort of alliance with her, lol. I REALLY don't trust this so i'm just going to play aloof and let him set that up if that is what he wants.

With Michelle i realize she's a big flirt. SHe's a big flirt with everyone and appears to use it to control people. Great for social game but at the same time kind of weird on the cyberwebs (if she is that way with everyone). I definitely <3 her but don't know if i'm truly someone she trusts or what. The fact Todd knew about our "dates" makes me think she may be playing me but for now i don't have any other options so <3 michelle, lol.

I was most blunt with Todd and though i forced him to agree with me he did agree. Most people don't like to lie if they don't have to. By putting him in a position where he was forced to agree with an alliance it at least now places us in a predicament where he will have to vote someone else out to avoid lying. Granted, he could decide he didn't care and vote me out anyways (being a good player) but i'd still call him out for it to make others not trust him and that in turn is why people don't like to lie if they don't have to. lol!

his response to my PM:

Hey !! I would love to work with you. I think our strategies so far have been pretty much the same, just being active and going with the majority. But like you said with that strategy, sooner or later only active players will remain and those with alliances will band together and we'll find ourselves on the outs.

I like the whole idea of not voting for each other. You also mentioned Michelle, who is really cool, so maybe we would be able to work with her too ?? Just an idea but it seems possible. I'm really glad you messaged me about this. I think we can be a great team ;D

[Colby Donaldson]

Success! we won . We only won by 5 minutes but that's more than enough. We have a super dedicated tribe here. Erin kind of failed us but i still <3 her. She is the next one i want out, though.

I took on a bit of responsibility in this challenge so I hope that kind of proves my worth. I REALLY like my tribe as a whole. During those 15 minute wait periods we'd chat the whole time making time go by quickly. It was actually a good night and i was proud of my tribe even if we lost, lol. i'd be scared shitless if we lost but i'd still be proud of my tribe, lol.

[Colby Donaldson]

eww! endurance. Thank you for at least waiting for weekend, lol. I'm happy i slept in today so i'll be able to go for a long while tonight. I'd kind of rather do it during the day but the day has lots of surprises always and that would keep me from doing it. This is so hard when you think about tribe unity as a whole to win this. I won't be able to tell how anyone else on my tribe did.... nor their tribe. So it's like a blind endurance and that sucks. I don't want to "overcompete" because that adds a target to me... but if i win i guarantee myself staying. I don't exactly feel safe if we go to tribal (though i'd hope people would vote erin for her lack of trying/ poor excuse for missing last challenge).

[Colby Donaldson]

oh and RUDE! If this challenge ends tomorrow and tribal happens right away then i'm doomed... because that means tribal ends monday meaning tuesday is a challenge and tuesday I have my Muse concert which i go to right after work so i won't be able to compete

of course that's assuming i survive the next vote, lol

[Colby Donaldson]

Their tribe has too many active people >.

screw heidi and parv, lol. Heidi's been at it for a while and parv will be at it for a while. boo. i'm gonna stop at 5 hours me thinks