Confessional <3

[jessica]

because she was bitter. and a dumb cunt. she was the one that took forever to vote and then the host gave the vote to nick.

[Courtney]

oh

[jessica]

yeah i'm not a fan of her wait til i make my thread dedicated to what i plan on doing. i'll probably put my "get gina out of this game plan" into action tomorrow

[Andii]

hi.

[jessica]

haay amy! *hugs amy*

[Andii]

-hugs back for Janie-

[jessica]

so we lost the challenge. kinda disappointing but whatever. I swear if Silas doesn't go I will smack somebody. I have been telling people that he needs to go and nobody wants to listen. What I find hilarious is the fact that the other day on the way to the gym Todd and I were discussing how I wanted Silas out next if we had lost and he didn't agree to wanting to vote him out like I do. Well I told him i'd get the votes without him then and get him out of the game myself and he didn't believe me. I'm also not sure how Colby came up in the convo but the way Todd talked he didn't really talk like he would want to work with Colby in general. Probably nothing against Colby. But then the other day I was talking to Michelle and she wants to replace Erin our alliance with Colby. And now Todd is all I think its a great idea.

*rolls eyes* I have a feeling Todd is just going to flop sides constantly to see who will get him farthest in the game. Too bad he doesn't remember that I know his gameplay. On the downside of that he also knows my gameplay. *note to self to change password*

[jessica]

I'm super glad that we won the challenge. If we hadn't I think we were going to vote out Erin. Out of everybody on the tribe, besides Todd, shes the least social and is hardly ever around. She wasn't even around for this last challenge that we did today but luckily we were able to pull it off. I found it hilarious that Silas voted for me because I pointed out the truth to him. Oh we'll he'll get over it.

Of course I recently go and buy a new laptop, and Todd was over at my house before we were going to the gym and I just so happened to have the board open; he ended up reading all my confessionaals. Probably especially the stuff about me not wanting to take him to the end. It just means I have something added to watch out for now.

[jessica]

So I can't tell you how happy I am that Gina got voted out. OF course I didn't go through with my plan the way I wanted to. I got sidetracked, and never got around to talking to who I needed to. Oh well it doesn't matter, she went home anyways. Now I'm just hoping that we can win this challenge too. I'm usually excellent at endurance challenges. It's just a matter of, do I have the time to spend on it and not fuck up. I guess we'll find out.

[jessica]

so this is just a super quick update. i'll write more later. but Todd was texting me like oh we lost. I wanted to say "no shit sherlock." Like clearly i'd have eventually checked by then. THen he's all like "Natalie and Michelle know the votes for Erin right." I wanted to be like don't give yourself the impression that it was your idea to vote her out. Cuz it really wasn't.

[jessica]

So! to start from tribal and then go from there.. It was more or less a concensus that we would vote out Erin. As you can tell from the votes. Since we replaced Erin with Colby in our 4 person alliance it definitely helped. Mainly because Erin started not showing up as reuglarly as she had before and more or less probably felt that she was safe enough to stay no matter what. Oh how wrong she was. I felt bad when she was iming me earlier asking me if it was her going home. I'd rather not lie to her and tell her I didn't know, or that she wasn't because I mean it was obvious that she was.

I finally changed my avatar. Or well I guess I should say that I actually got an avatar. I mean Jessica was voted out first in Fiji, the girl doesn't have thaat many pictures. It's not like she had 6 confessionals in the first episode. Luckily I was able to find a picture though.

Earlier Todd was at my house and he was using my old laptop to talk to Parvati and he told her that he was watching the Hannah Montana movie. Then when I started talking to her I told her the same thing not knowing that he had also told her that. Oh well I'm sure he's smart enough to figure it out that we know each other. We'll see if hes smart enough to believe it though. I'm going to hope that he's not.

So I'm petrified that there's going to be a tribe swap. I've been sitting pretty comfortably on this tribe and I'm assuming that you realized that. I mean I had both my main allies, Todd and Michelle, on this tribe and I had Kenny and Colby as added bonuses. Everybody thinks it's a tribe swap. I mean why else would we have to do a ranking, and why else would Todd be asked the question in tribal on whether or not there would be a tribe swap.

In case of a tribe swap I started talking to both Parvati and Ben tonight. Parvati and I have gotten along whenever we talk since before tribes were made so that wasn't a hard conversation for either of us. Ben though, I hardly ever talk to him and even described him as boring in the beginning. Well while he's still slightly boring, he wasn't too bad to talk tonight. We actually had our record conversation that lasted all of maybe 15 minutes. In that time I figured out that after being voted out Greg went around telling everybody that Michelle myself and Todd were aligned.

Trust me I was not happy to believe that since my whole angle for a tribe swap would be to tell people that if we had lost again that I didn't know what would happen since I didn't really have anybody etc. Well that went out the window once Ben told me that Greg had gone around saying all that. I mean really Greg, WTF. I tried to keep you in this game!! So do me a favor and quit going around and fucking up my game. I guess that's what I get for trying to be nice. *rolls eyes*

Oh yeah, did I mention that while Todd was here he told Parvati that somebody had called her out in our tribal council thread about how much she had done for the last challenge. I wanted to smack him!! He didn't say who it was that had done it, but still, it was totally unnecessary for him to say that. God if we have a tribe swap I hope you lock all our old tribal councils so that she doesn't find out until after this game.

[jessica]

Oh yeah, did I mention that it's clear that Parvati and Greg are close. Greg's status message on aim right now is how that they're more or less married. *sigh* i'm going to have to start watching my back a lot moree if theres a tribe swap.

[jessica]

ME: Parvaslut is a dumb cunt.
Michelle: I'm alienating myself from you now.
ME: Why? Because everybody's after me today?
Michelle: Cuz Parvsluts after you.
ME: Parvaslut, you forgot the a.
Michelle: I want to fuck her.


just an example of why I love this girl. This is just a quick thing for you to read before I write my next confessional <3

[jessica]

So it was true all our worst nightmares come true, with a tribe swap. But I must say that I'm glad it wasn't the way I thought it was going to be done. I had a feeling that it was going to be where you took all the odds and evens after the average and then split us up that way. I much prefer this way if you were wondering. At least now I don't have a tribe stacked against me. (Much like I was worried about) Now i'm just hoping that we can pull off a few wins here and there and I'm quite excited to see how we all work together.

I'm sure your wondering why I referred to Parvaslut as a dumb cunt in my previous post. That is mainly because when I imed Colby earlier he told me that he knew Parvaslut wasn't going to pick me and that's why he didn't pick me first. I told him I wasn't too concerned as to when I was picked which is the truth. But anyways, then he told me that Parvaslut was mad that right before we started picking tribes the first time that we bonded over Twilight and then I didn't pick her.

I'd love to im her right now and tell her to get her head out of her ass and look around. I mean seriously?? She was going to have been my next pick right when Steph picked her so there wasn't much I could have done. I needed to have Michelle on my tribe, I probably could have done without Todd but ya know. He'd have been fine on his own. So could Michelle but Michelle and I are insperable.

So now she has it out for me all because I didn't pick her for my tribe. *rolls eyes* Whatever. She'll have to get over it at some point. Because i'm not dealing with her shit.

Personally I love Kenny as a person. I do, but as a player? He can be soo shady. I mean it's obvious with the fact that he had cross tribal alliances when he was picked to go to exile. Now it's even more blatantly obvious with the fact that Parvaslut picked him first, or maybe second I'm not going to look to see which one it was, it was not that important of a fact. For now though as long as I pretend that I'm still with him if we lose, maybe he'll send me to exile over JT or whoever the other one is. Doubtful, but a girl can hope.

[jessica]

Amy and Janie up to their usual tricks. <3

Ok soo, so much has gone on since my last confessional. I hope your ready to read. Becuase this is going to be a long one. I figure lets start at the beginning.

Jt and I know each other from another game. We both played in Survivor China Divided game, and I was Courtney and he was Todd. So we of course had our Toddney alliance. Him and I were supposed to go to the end together until James got smart and flipped and voted us out. But anyways not the point.

So now that Jt and I know who each other is, we have more trust in each other than we had before. Michelle also knows him from another game and now she also has him on our side. So between the two of us he implicitly trusts us. He told me that he pretty much closed the door on almost everybody thats on the other tribe. So I now know that when it comes to merge it will be easy to get out those that I want to get out. Such as, Parvaslut. She's super nice and all and I tell her that I wanna work with her etc. but it's all an act.

I also talked to Parv about it and she was all like "oh I didn't pick you cuz it would have been all of my old tribe members and then you so you would have gone early and I don't want that to happen so we'll just get to work at merge."

What's somewhat funny, is like I said before I told her that I'm all of working with her at merge but I plan on only using her long enough before I can get rid of her. I mean Michelle and I were talking on the phone last nite and Parvaslut is amazing at challenges. Who wants somebody that good to be kept in the game?!

I have recently sealed a final four alliance between myself, Michelle, Colby, and JT. Jt thinks that I'm taking him to the final two. For the most part, I would like to take Jt instead of Colby because I feel that I'm closer with JT than Colby. But Michelle is closer to Colby than JT. But in the end it's hard to say what will happen.

Jt already plans on getting Judd to side with us at merge so that will definitely help. That also means that if Kenny decides to flip at merge and side with them like I think he will, then we won't have to worry because we'll have both JT and Judd. Right now if we lose this current challenge then we're going to vote out Steph. If we lose again it will probably be Todd. Although Colby thinks that the main alliance right now is Colby Michelle me Todd over the one that we have with JT, so he probably wont be too happy. But oh well.

I so feel like there's more that I'm supposed to add but I can't remember it. Oh well I'll just add it in later if I remember

Oh yeah I know something else I meant to add, this was where Amy was last nite