Confessional <3

[Andii]

Yes ma am.

[jessica]

So I can see why I threw that challenge when it was the veto comp in URTV8. That 15 second rule on proboards should be banned otherwise I probably wouldn't have had that much of a problem. Well I probably would have since my computer is being a piece of shit today. But that's not the point of this confessional.

I already know that I didn't win that immunity challenge. I would prefer that the dumb cunt didn't win it again because she has to be bad at something, God knows what it is but she can't be good at everything. Nobody's that perfect. I'm at least hoping that one of my allies gets it.

I mean it is obvious that the dumb slut is going to have everybody vote for me once again. We had both discussed on possibly getting rid of Judd but it doesn't matter to me since I knew she wasn't going to go along with it anyways. Right now my goal is to force a tie. With me, JT, Kenny, and Todd voting one person, and then Parvaslut and her crew voting me. Then when it is another tie and it goes to a challenge as long as we vote for somebody that I can easily win in the tie breaker challenge, then I stay in the game and we will then have majority over her crew and can hopefully pick them off one by one. Now I know plans never go as they're supposed to and this one will probably change about 10 times before tribal but I'm hoping that I can at least stay in the game. If not then the same message goes from last week, KC I <3 your game and will be very sad to be voted out if I am voted out that is.

[jessica]

I'm going to write you guys an update confessional on what my strategy was at exile and then I'm just going to bitch but for now this is a picture of about how I am about to smack a bitch

[jessica]

OK so first I'll fill you in on my strategy as to what I was doing while at exile and how I succeeded, well how I should have gotten the idol. So first I started by finding out the password to the bay. I passed it on to Todd and told him to do the posting (cuz I sure as fuck wasn't going to) I then started on the airfield and cracked that password. Well since I was a blonde, I thought that the box was on the board aanywhere so I checked all over the board looking for this damn box. So I got tired of looking and went and showered and then it hit me it's in exile! So I went back, made the mistake of telling Todd, and then made him finish posting. I got into the forest. And I do believe he found one password and that was for the village.

Well because Todd is dense as fuck he couldn't even wrap his mind around the fact that to get into the rest of the village that he had to go through the other places first. *rolls eyes* So then I explained it to him and more or less through finding all the rest of the stuff I had found the idol but didn't post it in my confessional due to the fact that I thought we had to have the puzzle done first. So I was working on finishing the puzzle, and then Todd found it. Well I was trying to tel lhim that I was almost done with the puzzle and that we could then claim it but he got it first and now I'm about to smack the fuck out of him.

Now you may wonder why I want to smack him and that is becuase he is so fucking stupid!! I swear to God, I love him and Kenny to death but I think they must be the most naiive people I have ever met in my life! They think that all of a sudden Parvaslut has turned over a new leaf and that she's not going to lie to us to make us think something different. I mean the round Michelle went home, which was not that long ago, she told us they were all voting Todd.

Come on now?! Did you guys reallyy forget that already??? So now that Kenny apparently has her convinced that Todd or I are going to idol her out, she won't vote for either of us. Well while that may have her scared I do firmly believe that she has the idol from when her and Todd had to play friend or foe but thats another bitch fest that I will get to later in this confessional. But anyways, they know thing that all of a sudden she's just going to agree to have Natalie voted out. Um Hellooooo, Natalie = on her side = she will be in the minority next round... Um do you think she's that stupid?? Of course she's not going to do that!!

So now they think that all of a sudden she's not going to protest to one of her allies getting voted out... and they think that Judd is going to just throw away his... I just want to fucking smack them! I don't trust Parvaslut as far as I can throw her. Either she's going to use the idol on herself, or she's going to give it to Natalie meaning she's going to get one of us out.

At best before it was going to be a tie. So now that she knows that we're voting Natalie because Kenny told her, she can give her the idol and then one of us will go home. So now the fact that I'm pissed about not getting the idol myself is the fact that I spent most of my evening looking for that and then Todd who showed up an hour after I started and then gets to claim it just because I was wasting my time on the puzzle.

So now why I think that Todd is a dumbass because of the friend or foe game. And KC can testify to this I'm sure since he was there, and well so was I since Todd was on my laptop in my kitchen when we were supposed to be at the gym but thats not the point. He was pretty much telling Parvaslut exactly what he was going to do. I mean really?? Toward the end he came right out and said he was saying "friend" instead of "foe" cuz he knew he couldn't beat her at a challenge. So because he pretty much outted what he was doing, she knew she could say foe and get a free idol. And Todd is dumb enough to believe that she doesn't have it. I swear, I might have to be like secluded from these dumbasses becuase if they get any dumber, I might kill them.

I'm sure theres going to be more talk on the vote and what we should do so I will post that as it happens. <3

[jessica]

ok so i'm currently freaking out. maybe its just plain paranoia? but I don't trust her. I mean she says she's going to vote out nat which i think is a total lie. I think we need to change our votes to her, I use my idol so I stay and if Parv goes, then all our problems are gone. At least Kennys not on right now to talk us out of it, cuz he thinks he knows everything. At least Todd will listen to me. *crosses fingers* I hope this works. I don't trust Parv and I know she knows that we have the idol cuz she's not stupid. So she has targetted me more than Todd so its obvious she'll have mroe people vote me. Then we have my vote and Todd's vote for Parvaslut, and if I can get ahold of Kenny have him vote for her too. And hopefully she goes. God I hope so. Wish me luck KC!

[jessica]

So can I just say that Parvaslut is still bitter over the fact that I didn't pick her for my tribe. Can I just send out a little message: GROW THE FUCK UP. thanks.

[jessica]

So I feel that I have very few chances left in this game. The past two tribals I have had to rely on an idol to save me, and I have a feeling Parvaslut and her band of merry whores are going to pull a Courtney Yates vs Jean-Robert and keep voting me until i'm out of the game. So either I have go to on some amazing immunity winning streak, have Kenny or Todd win immunity so I go to exile and somehow find the idol and use it again, or I dont know pray for a miracle?

I guess it's not a very good feeling to think that your so disliked by a person. and for what reason? Other than that fact that apparently Parvaslut doesn't like me in the game much because of the fact that I didn't pick her for my tribe. If I wanted to deal with such mundane bullshit I'd have stayed in touch with more of the people I graduated with.

I guess I should clarify some things as far as my feelings on Kenny since I have felt in the past that he was being wishy washy due to the way he played me in URTV8. And I must say I take back all of those comments. Through the past two rounds he has showed that he is on my side and not playing me like I may have thought in the beginning. If he hadn't given me his idol I wouldn't even be here right now, and If he hadn't won immunity I wouldn't have gotten to go to exile. Trust me Todd would not have figured out how to find that idol if I wasn't there with him, he was confused on the whole "go find Jeffrey's box" clue. *rolls eyes*

I'm just honestly glad that I was able to convince Todd to give me the idol. This round was the whole reason I wanted the idol in my posession. Todd is not in any danger as long as I am still in this game. Parvaslut doesn't even want Todd out of the game as far as I know. But me? It's like shes a hitman and i'm her next target. So yeah I'd much rather have had the idol in my posession today so I didn't have to try and convince him to give it to me. Thank God I did. Well if I hadn't he would have been gone next round anyways cuz honestly he's not that good at comps, or the social aspect either.

When I first entered this game it was more of a "I'm playing this to win it." And now its more of a "Im going to play this so that I can get the best placement I possibly can." Because everything is clearly stacked against me and getting to the finals seems like a long shot. So i'm not going to kid myself. It will be a miracle if I'm facing the jury and sitting in the final two. I think it's much more likely that I will be one of the jury questioning the final two. That is as long as Parvaslut stays in this game.

Now there's this whole speculation about JT and I guess I'll get into htat now. As far as JT goes, I had him wrapped around my finger when Michelle was still in the game. But now that she's gone I feel like I've lost him. Michelle says it's because I don't have a "connection" with him. But she can bite me, cuz I don't know what she's talking about. Just because she flirts with everything male that has a penis and testosterone does not mean that that's the only what that you can possibly make a connection with another person. I mean I must have done something right since he won't vote for me.

It's clear that he knew the vote was for me and instead of voting for me he voted for Todd. Now why he keeps voting for Todd I have no idea. Especially since he told me he was going to vote Natalie and he's one of the first people that even approached me and Kenny about voting out Natalie. So now that he didn't.. well I don't know what to think.

Then the fact that now Kenny and JT know who each other is behind their aliases and now they're total bffs. I mean they're talkingg away while JT is supposed to be at a hockey game which is his excuse for not answering me but yet he's answering Kenny. Then he would answer me if we were talking about anything that wasn't game related. But when I confronted him about him voting for Todd he admited to it but then he wouldn't tell me why he wouldn't vote Natalie. I swear I could just smack these biatches. They're so annoying!

Then another connection I've made, an easy one at that, is the fact that when I was talking to Parvaslut the other night she told me that Aras was one of her biggest allies. Now then the one time somebody was talking to Judd I want to say it was Kenny and he copy pasted me the convo it said something once again about how Aras was one of his closest allies. Now Parvaslut claims that she doesn't like Judd and wants Judd out of the game but if you put two and two together it's quite obvious that Parvaslut and Judd are really aligned. Probably through their mutual connection of Aras. See the thing with Parvaslut is that she thinks she's an amazing player and she's the best ever, which i will say she is a good player. But she doesn't realize that I see right through her.

For example the round Michelle went home she told everybody that they were voting for Todd and instead voted Michelle. Then she had told me that she wanted to vote Judd out and that we could combine forces of alliances to get him out cuz he kept flip flopping. Instead she voted me and I used the idol that Kenny gave me. Then this round she says that she'll vote out Natalie because she doesn't trust Natalie, and then she really does vote me, exactly like I thought she would. So really, every time she's pulling the same tricks and thinks that I haven't figured it out. All I have to say is I might pretend to be a dumb blonde, but really I'm not that dumb sweetheart. Learn a new strategy.

[jessica]

First off, Dear KC. I'm glad your feeling better Andii told me you were sick. We wanted to make you chicken soup. Thank you for the lovely break from Parvaslut. It was a nice little vacation without having to deal with her skank ass. <3 Jessica.

So now on to the more serious discussion of this game Like how I plan on bitching aobut Parvaslut, and well everybody else that I can think of.

Contrary to what I wrote as the answer to my tribal question I do feel that I will be here for another round. Not that I would write that there out in the public forum because I want them to believe that I think I'm going home. Now that Jt is back from Cali, he's back on my side and ready to kick ass. While he still has his alliance with Judd, I do feel that he's still going to be loyal to me and he'll actually vote rather than just throwing it away by voting for Todd.

The reason he was always voting for Todd was exaclty as I thought it was which is because he was on his phone, didn't have access to a photo editor and had to vote, so he just voted for the last person that he had voted for before he left. I had told Todd this numerous times but whatever, he's dense and doesn't get anything anyways so it doesn't shock me that he wouldn't believe me or understand that.

Of course Todd says hes convinced Parvaslut that he's really voting me out, partially the reason why we were "fighting" in the challenge thread. Mainly it's just because I'm not feeling well and acting like a bitch makes me feel better. I'm hoping that Todd was convincing enough in making her think that they're voting for me because otherwise if Judd finds the idol and uses it we're fucked. Of course, she'd probably think that we would vote out Judd since he was so wishy washy but we're actually voting for Heidi. At least we won't have to see any more images of Heidi Pratt all of the board. I think that girl could give Lady Gaga a run for her money as to who's the bigger train wreck but not that's not the point.

I feel the only reason Heidi, and her little images of the ugly plastic barbie doll that can't even afford a decent plastic surgeon, is still in the game is because of the fact that she was aligned with Parvaslut. I mean it's not like she does anything. If there were to be an award show at the end of this I think she'd win the "Most Invisible" award. I mean really, what does she do? Besides post pictures, and pretend to be all innocent and amazing and that she's not strategizing behind everybodys back (which I'm sure she does.) I've never even talked to her once in this game and at the beginning of the game she was never around. If I make it to the finals (which as I've said before is a long shot) she'd probably accuse me of never talking to her. Oh well, I just never wanted to subject myself to what would amount to one of the most boring conversations of my life.

Now that Jt is back like I said it means hes back on our side and actually voting which means that Heidi should go home, as long as she doesn't play an idol of some sort. Parvaslut was quite smart in not sending Heidi to exile considering the dumb bitch would have never found the idol. She'd have been worse than Todd when we were there together.

Next round will be interesting since we'll still have majority. I think Jt will want to vote out Todd and I'm not going to really want to allow that to happen, but if we don't then we lose Jt. I'm hoping that one of us can win immunity and then take out Parvaslut next round and send her to the jury where she belongs. There's a nice little spot on the jury bench at tribal that has her name on it. She can sit between Natalie and Michelle so they don't kill each other. I think the round she gets voted out I will rejoice, and if I outlast her in this game then my life goals will be complete.

Jt and I were discussing how we had a final two deal before he went away and I was asking him if we were still good on that. He said yes and I feel that he's being honest with me but it's hard to say. I know from my perspective I don't know if I'll keep my end of the deal but thats another story. We were trying to decide if we should call ourselves JessicaT, or JeTssica. But then he went on and off to being quiet as usual so I guess that's not too much of a change.

[jessica]

So I'm not even quite sure where to begin..

I'm honestly not shocked that Heidi threw such a tantrum after being voted out. And none of us deserving to win besides Parvaslut, who won't last much longer, and JUdd, who's done nothing?? Um seriously, but after Parvaslut goes, compared to anybody else left in this game I have played the better game. The only person that I think could have beat me based on that aspect is Kenny. I plan on playing "the jury" hates me card so that they'll take me to the finals. I have a feeling that the jury is going to be bitter, but whatever. They're just mad that we outplayed them.

At the challenge our goal was to take out the Parvaslut so that we could ensure that she didn't win immunity. The fact that she didn't win it was a godsend. And I'm hoping everybody is smart and votes her out. For the most part, I don't care who gets voted out next, (I would like it to be Judd) but if we don't vote her out this time and she wins immunity next we'd be fucked. So hence why she needs to go now. I pretty much told JT that I wanted her gone this round badly cuz she didn't have immunity, she didn't have an idol, and none of her allies are left. She thinks she can still get JT and Judd to vote with her but I think I have more on Jt than she does and he agreed that if I'm that worried about her gaining enough power to come against us to vote me out that he'll help take her out. He still thinks that we have a final two deal. Then again Todd also thinks that we have a final two deal and Judd wants a final two deal with me.. I feel like the shiny new toy that all the kids on the playground want.

Who will I decide to side with as far as who I go to the finals with, if I get there. I'm not going to get overly cocky cuz that's always somebodys downfall in games like this. I'm not sure who I'd pick though. I don't have a final two deal with Kenny, and I feel like he has one with somebody else. He knows of my final two deal with JT but thinks it's fake so that we get him to vote with us. He doesn't know of my final two with Todd. And last night Judd asked me if I'd take him to the finals cuz I would win against him. I know I probably wouldn't win against Kenny hence why I really don't want to go with him. Anybody else though at this point is fair game.


The Kenny Section

So whenever I tell him that I'm writing a confessional he always tells me to write something about him so here it is. His very own section in my lovely confessional. He found the idol at exile which is a plus. Especially since myself, Kenny, and Todd are the only ones that know and I don't think either of them are stupid enough to tell that to the other side.

I feel like Kenny is going to keep me around til about final 4, which will probalby be Me, Todd, JT and Kenny and then he'll go and try and vote me or JT out. But instead, I think that Jt and I will force a tie between whoever Kenny and Todd vote for, and then Jt and I vote Kenny. Then In a revote we would send Kenny home. I'm sure he'd be pissed but, I don't know. I can't really read him. I didn't even expect to have gotten this far into the game. I thought I was going to be on the jury by now so having made it is definteily slightly nervewracking. I guess it'll be very interesting what happens in these next few rounds..

[jessica]

KC not so secretly wants to see my boobs :X

[Taylor]

[jessica]

I know, shocking isn't it? I can't say I blame him ,they are pretty amazing.

[Andii]

Lol. Boob talk.

[KC]

Does this excite you?

[Taylor]

YES.